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though we were supposed to stay back in class to 2.30pm for our service learning thing, me and nicole were dismissed at 1pm cause we got cca today.
actually was very sad derh,
thinking that i still have to attend cca when exams is just the following monday.
we went to chinese garden to pack some goody bags crap larh.
and surprisingly, it's quite fun lorh.
nicole and the others were like looking at those guys there,
saying they are cute, hot or whatever.
i think they are BOY-CRAZY! :D
finished packing everything by about 4pm.
then walked all the way to chinese garden mrt station.
and nicole went off first.
then me, jasmine, jia wen, zhong ting, benita, verlynn, cindy and shirley
went to mr bean and bought some drinks and because of those drinks, we got CHASED out of the mrt station! LOLS!
we had no choice but to sit on the floor just outside the mrt station and started chatting and crapping till 5.
=)
and here's a good news:
we finally settled the class tee problem!
vivian, j gan and amanda went to queensway today to make class tee.
and it's only S$18 after a long round of bargaining.
thanks and love them lots! =)
can get it back in about 1 to 2 weeks time.
good luck to everyone for mye.
good luck to me too! ^^
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
today, did not mange to present our class cdp,
cause no time liao, hais sadded.
stayed back for chinese oral.
and cher said i did WELL!
=)
almas lent me her spare phone today,
so now, i can finally sms!! =D
hais. i feel sad.
i sort of miss you.
though i still thought i had gotten over you.
Sunday, April 20, 2008
im feeling high today! xD
went to everyone's a lot people's blogs to tag.
and wished them good luck for mye.
hhaas, just being lame. =)
anyway it has been long,
since the last time i feel happy.
thanks everyone.
love all of you! (but some people more)
lols. =D
Thursday, April 17, 2008
dont be emo chunni!
work harder.
and smile more. =)
it might be a heavy responsibility,
but you can handle it!
prove to ms nor that she's right choosing me.
prove to her that i can be trusted too.
prove to her that i can do a great job and lead the class.
hahas, lols.
qiuying is right, i can see through this process, who're my true friends.
and who're those not.
i shouldnt bother about those not,
since they dont even understand my stand and feelings.
they are not worth for my friendship.
though once, i love them all.
thanks junwang.
thanks qiuying. just finished talking to her on the phone.
and i really felt enlightened! great job, councillor! xD.
i really appreciate and need all these encouragements to move on.
i just need someone, by my side, preparing to catch me when i fall.
cried during chinese period yesterday.
that time we were supposed to write a compo about two of our friends whom we thought had changed from last year.
i didnt know why, suddenly just felt so sad and emo.
and tears just flowed down uncontrollably.
i didnt intend to let anyone notice it.
it's only until ms wong sat beside me and ask me why am i crying,
then i cant stop trembling, and let it out.
''tears are warm when they run down your neck.
and perfume seems sweeter when a girl cries in your arms.
her body trembles and heaves and sighs.''
read this from a book. =)
today, ms nor asked me and hakim to write down those people' names if they leave their chairs.
but i didnt write down any.
then, she asked the two of us out of the classroom and had a small talk with us.
she said if we two dont cooperate with her, how can she probably then get the cooperation from the rest of the class.
she told me i must be able to differentiate between 'friendship' and 'responsibility'.
i cant just because i want to side my friends and let them their ways.
but she was wrong.
i didnt do this because i want to side my friends, or anything.
it's just that, i dont have much say.
and the another thing that puzzled me was that,
why is the chairman always asking me what to do, instead of thinking himself?
and why is it that i always got the blame instead of the chairman?
hais.
nowadays i get so emotional.
always felt that there is tears in my eyes.
and sometimes they seem so heavy in them.
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
people say i changed.
more evil,
less kind,
mood swings,
dont care people,
fierce,
proud,
...
and, less happy.
im sorry.
sorry almas, for being unreasonable sometimes,
for my occasional mood swings.
sorry rebecca.
sorry nicole.
sorry hannah.
sorry zhi sheng, for calling you nasty things.
sorry desmond.
sorry jy.
sorry junwang.
once and for all,
sorry everyone.
i did want to change back,
to the old me.
but somehow it aint so easy.
but no matter what,
i will change back.
dont laugh at this post,
or think it's funny.
it's not.
cause i did this post, crying.
Sunday, April 13, 2008
speechless.
i dont deserve anything, and everything.
hais. so bored nowadays.
sad.
and more sad.
and more and more sad.
lols.
Wednesday, April 9, 2008
today went for the investiture.
i felt that it was nice. xD.
at least because we managed to skip a science lesson. =D
and today we had our health screening.
sadly, i have to change my specs. :(
& my backbone is still the same as last year.
so, to all dears, please remind me always to be in a good posture. =)
i actually intend to go down to queensway to make the class tee tmr,
but i dont know whether i can make it anot.
hais.
felt rather sad today. =(
i'm sorry, for everything that i have done wrong.
Thursday, April 3, 2008
i cant pretend that i dont know you like me.
so, cant you just dont like me?
i know im just being demanding and selfish.
but this is me.
thats why i said im not a nice girl.
sorry.
for saying all those nasty things to you.
i cant control my frustations and anger
and i ended up hurting you.
it's all my fault.
i only knew how great you are,
when all the others turn their backs against me.
i only knew how to appreciate your care and concern,
when i realised they are gone.
things changed and cant be back to the original lerh.
i felt that i have changed.
for the worst.
i had mood swings so often
that im scared of myself too.
im so stressed.
but i shouldnt pour out all my troubles to anyone anymore lerh.
i just felt that,
i need to cry.
she is right.
he cant be trusted.
he really cant.
and now, i can only blame myself,
when i got betrayed.
wtf.
everyone is helping him instead of me.
why?
i wont like him, i will never like him.
no matter what he does, no matter how hard he tries.
dont blame me for being evil or cruel,
this is the only way for him to give up on me.
"chunni, you need to be polite, but firm."
if he really likes me,
why doesnt he realise that since the day he likes me,
my life become more miserable.
and if he really likes me,
he should try to stop liking me.
he should not like me anymore.
im cruel, im evil,
no choice, my situation forced me to do so.